Thanksgiving, 2009

Alone Heidi Face” by Titus Powell
Thursday, November 26, 2009:

Seneca dropped off his roommate Bonnie, age 22, in the early afternoon at her girlfriend’s for Thanksgiving dinner.  She said she wanted to be home by 10:00 pm. Seneca forgot to ask which day.  She turned up Saturday.  Something about Demon Rum!

Seneca’s expected Thanksgiving/Christmas partner and friend of eight years, Anastasia, age 38, went the Los Angeles area to chase some new stud muffin.  After Thanksgiving dinner in her hotel’s restaurant with him Thursday evening, she realized she made a mistake.  She went to her room to supposedly pick up her clothes to accompany him home, but instead called him to say it just wasn’t going to work.  She spent the weekend in Newport Beach without him.

Maggie, age 38, is with Seneca about half the holidays, but not this one. She’s got a new boyfriend named, of all things, Mike.  Seneca has met him and likes him.  He says he’ll have her completely off heroin by Christmas.  Maggie snorts and does not inject.  She now has a $10 a day habit, down from $100 a day 6-9 months ago.  Because he’s a former addict and understands this stuff, he just may do it.  Her drop in drug usage is due primarily to a stint in the hospital for pneumonia, where the staff began to wean her off heroin with suboxone.   She’s looking REALLY good, much better than in the last few years.  Wearing a baseball cap, her blue eyes are like huge jewels.

Sweet, sweet Mika, age 24, lives five hours north and Seneca never sees her.  They used to talk twice a day, but now only once.  The father of her baby, due February 1, is taking time away from Seneca, as is appropriate.  The guy seems to be crazy about her (who isn’t?), but only earns minimum wage.  It must be incredible to be in a relationship with a perfectly formed young woman who is full of spunk and sassy.  She’s really great!

Seneca’s 19-year-olds, Reena and Lida, are now 20, and are still perfect!  Because of their youth, they were never romantic relationships.

Reena went to northern Michigan to be with family. 

Lida is lost to a stud muffin who is a jerk.  She will eventually return.  When she lived with Seneca, she gave up stripping and went to school.  Now, needing to support her jobless muffin, she has given up school and strips in an all-nude club.  It greatly saddens Seneca.

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Stripper Girl Update – Labor Day, 2009

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Nastja By Titus Powell
Monday, August 27, 2009:

Bonnie’s headed home to the Wild West for an 8-day Labor Day weekend.  While she’s gone, Seneca will be visiting family in Las Vegas.

Lucky will be in the Chicago area drinking.

Maggie claims she’ll be in rehab.

Yeah! Right!

Mika will be cooking her new child which is in the oven, due February 1.

Reena will be pissing and moaning that Seneca doesn’t spend enough on her when he takes her to BeBe’s.

He loves Reena!

Bonnie and Seneca will be starting school (same school) in a few weeks.  They’re on a quarter system, so they start at the end of September.  She’ll be getting full credit in the graduate school.  Seneca goes for fun.  Call him a party animal!  They might be mutually supportive in that they will both need to study. 

Bonnie’s qualified on an M-16, but Seneca’s bigger than she is.  He tells her that real women are qualified on AK-47’s.  Pisses her off!  She goes into this tirade about an AK-47 being a piece of artillery and an M-16 being a precision instrument.  Military girls just can’t take a joke!  She loves kickboxing.  She can kick Seneca’s ass!

No word from sweet Adriana in ages.  Refuse to believe it’s over.

Anastasia is still boy-crazy, juggling many at once.

Lida is dancing at a nude strip club to support her loser boyfriend, breaking Seneca’s heart because she’s again teasing men for a living.

Sandy might be out of the six-month halfway house by now.  No word from her.

Thinking about going to DOM school!  But I gotta ask Bonnie first.  Am nervous about that!  Gawd!  I like her!  Said that about the last ten or twenty!  But this one’s different……..

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cough……..

Published in:  on September 22, 2009 at 8:00 am Leave a Comment

Valentine’s Day

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Saturday, February 14, 2009, Valentine’s Day:

Seneca ended up staying home alone on Valentine’s Day, and didn’t feel bad about it at all.

Earlier in the week, he invited the lovely Jade (31) out for Valentine’s Day, but she was busy.  Seneca is very aware of her other commitments.

Seneca believes all hotties love clothes bought at BeBe’s.

On Saturday afternoon, at the last minute, he invited Roxanne (27) out.  She too was busy, but agreed to spend Saturday the 21st with him.  Yay!  Seneca has a nice gift from BeBe’s for her.

The dynamic duo, Reena and Lida, both 19, were out chasing boys.  They each received $163 in gifts from BeBe’s from him.

Mika (23), who lives five hours north, did receive a nice gift bought at BeBe’s from him.  The two had a close conversation in the morning.  In the evening, she probably went out with the guy who is her daily workout partner.  She may have had an additional workout, perhaps while wearing her new BeBe top.

He didn’t see Geanna (26), but bought a black BeBe top for her with a huge red kiss and rhinestones on it.  Her daughter got a pink hoodie with the word “LOVE” emblazoned on it and bought from a discount store.

He sent Adriana a text message which stated “Happy Valentine’s Day!  You’re still the best!”  The lack of a reply is a huge message to him.

He did speak to Anastasia.  At age 37, she is in love with a 23-year-old boy and is flying to Florida with him.  She generally reconciles with Gintas in a week or two.

Mary (23) and Maggie (37) are no longer in his thoughts.

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Published in:  on February 16, 2009 at 11:09 pm Leave a Comment

Status

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Melissa
Thursday, January 29, 2009:

Dreamgirl has a new job, and she’ll be traveling all over the world, including Chicago.  Yay!  I want to find an assignment for her in Antarctica so she’ll be able to say she’s been laid on every continent!

I really did like the new girl – Ms. Red – so sexy!  But I haven’t pursued her any further.  She’s soooo young – was she 23? – and full of issues, even though drug-and-alcohol-free.  I’ll try again, but maybe I’m burnt out on chasing.  Or maybe because she’s exactly the kind I go for, so hot, so messed up, so destructive, with two very young kids.  I remember those fat ta ta’s jiggling around on that tiny rib cage, and I fall apart.

Was with a new girl Saturday, age 22.  Can’t remember her name.  She’s bothering me much via email.  She thinks I can solve her financial woes. 

Great afternoon Saturday hanging out with Geanna and her five-year-old daughter.  I love them both.  I’ll be spending today with Geanna.  Did I mention that I love her? 

Saturday evening got screwed up by Sandy.  I can’t wait for her to move out. 

Things are not going well with Reena.  She disappeared pretty much for ten days, popping in every now and then.  I provide her free rent, food, mountains of fast food, things like manicures and hair-styling, and sometimes spend hours a day chauffeuring her around.  For what?  Cause she’s so cute!  Tired! 

Reena sleeps all day and goes clubbing all night.  At least she’s drug-free and almost alcohol-free.  I’m trying to talk her into getting a job, but she seems to be allergic to it.  She prefers that I provide for her everyday needs and that hot young guys pay her way at the clubs.  Her body is perfect.  Her ability to flirt is unmatched.

Cancelled a date with a 34-year-old Korean tonight.  Burnt out. 

Got a date with an age-appropriate (oh noooo!) woman Friday evening.  For some reason, I’m looking forward to it.  May cancel anyway.  My attitude on dating has really soured.

Kris was hammering me Wednesday evening to buy her some pain relief.  She’s terribly dope-sick, with nausea and severely aching joints.  I refused.  She’s pissed.  I don’t want to be involved in buying pain relief at all.  Big fight with Sandy Tuesday night over the same issue.

I still talk to Mika twice a day.  She gets off probation in October and wants me to take her to Jamaica at that time for the ganja she loves.  I don’t smoke, but I do love to be with her.  Probably will take her.

Huge fight with Maggie a couple of weeks ago.  I’ve lost the fascination with her.  Having her and Sandy together made me realize how screwed up they both are.  Maggie’s in love with the SAME black dealer-pimp that Sandy is screwing.  That caused a huge fight between the two.  I kicked Maggie out and asked Sandy to move out as soon as possible.

Adriana continues to become more and more perfect in my memory.  I can’t believe some guy will be lucky enough to eventually marry her.  What a dream come true!

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Melissa
Published in:  on January 29, 2009 at 1:49 am Leave a Comment

New Year 2009 Stripper Girl Update

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January 1, 2009:

On New Year’s Eve, Seneca left a party at 11:00 pm to accompany a close male relative to the Emergency Room at Edwards Hospital in Naperville.  The man, much too young for this stuff, apparently had a heart attack. 

Seneca returned home at 5:00 am New Year’s Day to find that Reena would be home at 8:00 am, returning from her dancing engagement in Wisconsin.  The two talk for an hour, and finally get to bed in their own rooms.  The two have become very close as roommates and friends.

An hour later, at 10:00 am, “Bad” arrives unexpectedly.  Seneca calls her “Bad” to differentiate her from her sister who is indeed “Badder”.

“Bad” is wild drunk and Seneca throws her in the car, demanding that she go immediately to the Womens Treatment Center rehab facility at Lake and Ashland in Chicago.  He is relieved when she goes in the door, but does not realize the severity of her distress. 

The Center’s personnel examine her, and call an ambulance to take her to Stroger Hospital, part of Cook County Hospitals.  She has overdosed on alcohol and is in serious shape.

“Bad” has been destroyed by her grandfather’s unrelenting sexual abuse as a child.  The scumbag destroyed this woman.

“Badder”, “Bad”’s sister, continues to be in-and-out of Jail, burdened by new battery charges and non-stop drinking.  She is non-functional.

Seneca has not seen Maggie since May.  Because of her closeness with “Bad”, they plan to visit her together Sunday at Stroger Hospital.  Maggie claims to be off crack.  She earns a living in the drug trade and may even be involved in the sex trade.

Seneca thinks of Adriana constantly and just cannot give up that fantasy.  He has had no recent contact with her.

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Seneca spent Christmas Eve with Anastasia, her boyfriend Gintas, Reena, Sandy, Vicky, and other people.  Anastasia looked wonderful, and the food and drinks were terrific.

On that Christmas Eve with Anastasia, Reena was obviously jealous of Vicky, Seneca’s new girlfriend.  Reena started a fight, which caused Seneca and Vicky to break-up.

Sandy’s conduct at the Christmas Eve party was atrocious, including making sexual moves on Reena and disappearing into a bedroom with a strange Russian.  Fed-up, Seneca asked her to move out of his home.

Mika is doing well in the North Woods, being a great mother and staying out of trouble.  She and Seneca talk twice each day on the phone.  The two are close in spite of the distance separating them.

Roxanne backed off friendship with Seneca because of her distain for Sandy.  Seneca hopes to revitalize that friendship.

Caron seems to be doing fine and sometimes hangs out with Seneca.

Chloe has returned to Paris for the holidays.  In two weeks, she goes to Peru for six months to study improving the breeding of the cocoa bean (not cocaine, but chocolate).

Seneca very much regrets the rupture in the Danielle relationship.  In January, she is studying in New York and returns to Chicago in February.  He doubts that she will accept contact with him again.

Seneca continues to be close to Georgia.  He continues friendships with Sara, Kris, and Rikki.

The Little Stripper Girl has made some phone calls inquiring about treatment for alcoholism.

The Superstar, Ashley, Kim, and Angie are not doing well at all and are no longer in Seneca’s life.  Seneca hears of them through friends. 

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The Office Christmas Party

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Ashley
Thursday Evening, December 11, 2008:

Seneca was invited to a Christmas Party as a guest.  He was to drive Ashley, but she didn’t confirm.  Over the following weekend, he and Ashley were to end their acquaintenceship.  Seneca neither wants to be her no-charge taxi-cab service nor wants her to move in with his three current house guests.  Ashley attempted to negotiate moving in with Reena.  Reena wants everyone to move in!

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The Former Miss Topless Las Vegas

The former Miss Topless Las Vegas was at the party.  The above photo does not do her justice.  She is stunning in person.  Every part of her is put together perfectly.  Seneca had the honor of driving her and the woman called Winter home, and became friendly with the two.

Upon stopping to drop Miss Topless Las Vegas at her boyfriend’s car, she returned in tears.  The boyfriend did not feel like romance tonight.  Seneca wonders what kind of guy could turn her down?  Seneca then drove her home, withholding the inclination to tell her that he too is capable of romance.

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Winter

Winter was glowing at the party.  Young and slender, she is very shapely.  Seneca was entranced by her.  In thanking him for the ride home, she gave him a very long and sweet kiss on the cheek.  Seneca wants to marry her!

A 40-year-old named Cindy was there with beautiful thick, dark hair and a lovely, innocent face.  The fish-net stockings on her thighs deeply affected Seneca.  He was stunned to find that she claims she and he had a romantic interlude ten years earlier.  A woman remembers something like that if the engagement was very good or very bad.  Seneca did not want to know the answer to that question.  She did give Seneca her phone number of her own accord.  Seneca likes her VERY much, but also knows she is way too wild for him.

Cathy was there!

She sat across from him at the dinner table.  In her 50’s, very pretty, and very well-groomed, she is a legend.  Seneca did not know that she appears in public.  She is a former wild woman, and is today known as the owner of the information clearinghouse which allows men with cash to meet charming young ladies in safety.  Both the men and the women in her national data base are known NOT to be law enforcement and to not be physically harmful to others.

Seneca’s regular buddies, Geanna, Savannah, Sandy, Dani, and Giselle, were also there.  Dani used to hang out with Maggie at his home.  Seneca does miss Maggie!

Published in:  on December 20, 2008 at 3:59 am Leave a Comment

Stripper Girl Update, Part Three

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Trisha

Sunday, October 28, 2007:

Anastasia has returned to taking her clothes off for a living.  Her efforts to find a real job are foundering, mostly due to her lying about her work history and  her supplying of false references.

She was in a Russian restaurant with her new boyfriend, a stunning Lithuanian hunk.  I can see why women throw themselves at this guy.   Wide shoulders, deep chest, and a very masculine look.  Not pretty at all.  Just masculine.

A table of Russians were flirting with her.  One grabbed her when she was standing and hugged her.  The Lithuanian pulled the guy off and a fight ensued.  The table of Russians got the Lithuanian on the floor and were beating and kicking him.  Anastasia jumped in to help her lover, and broke her leg in the scuffle.

Anastasia has her profile on match.com.  Yes, she is attempting to find someone to replace the Lithuanian, as he won’t divorce his black wife.  She’s picky, isn’t she?  She’s averaging 200 incoming emails each day, and can’t answer them all.

Anastasia was gorgeous today at lunch.  Perfectly groomed, stunning man-made ta ta’s, a creme knit top which was just a little too tight, and a very short, intensely-pink jacket.  What a doll!!!

Anastasia is elegant, sexy, tattoo-free, and drug-free.  She will drink to excess, she’s a Russian, but not that often.

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At lunch also were two other dancers.  Rene has been staying at my place for a week, and is driving me nuts.  She heads home to Florida Tuesday.  The ten days with Rene deserve a separate post.

Ashley was also at lunch.  Her body is a dream, slender with a set of D’s and a flat tummy.  But she has not aged well at all.  Heavy exposure to the Sun, cigarettes, heroin, and crack have really aged her face. 

Ashley once had silky blonde hair, but it’s now orange due to a bad, self-performed bleach job.  She does earn nice money, but I think her money is going to crack and heroin.  She claims that she is only on methadone and hydroponic weed.  She also seems to be supporting a heroin-addicted, loser boyfriend.  She met him at the methadone clinic.

At this moment, Rene is watching TV in the spare bedroom and the girl I call Badder is asleep on the couch next to me.  Badder was released from a court-ordered, 90 day rehab program two weeks ago, liquor being her drug of choice.

Badder was to live with her mother, but was immediately kicked out for drinking.  She went to live with a higher-level Latin King named Jesus whom she met in rehab.  To be at a higher level, one must murder an assigned victim.  Jesus served 13 years for that murder, and has been out for a year.

Badder claims that, in order to continue living with Jesus, she must prostitute herself in order to earn her keep and also let Jesus’ mother’s boyfriend watch her have sex with Jesus.  She called me last night and made me pick her up and get her out of there.

Jesus is aptly named, isn’t he?

I took her in on the condition that she not drink.  She proceeded to get wild-drunk courtesy of some guy she met in my complex.  As she has been drinking non-stop for all her late teen and later life, I know it must be stopped at any cost.  I called the police to turn her in for a Violation of Probation which would result in a mandatory halfway house for six months or longer.  The police came out and wouldn’t do anything.  I left a message with her Probation Officer asking for mandatory additional treatment.

Badder’s sister, Bad, continues to drink and call me every week to pick her up and deliver her from the clutches of her abusive, scumbag boyfriend.  She returns to him as soon as she sobers up.  The last two weeks, I have refused to pick her up.

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Trisha

My love of fourteen months, Mika, seems to have been a total lie.  I have found extensive and widespread evidence of her lying from checking toll booth records on the internet which record where she has been.  As I own the car she drives, I am mailed her parking tickets.  She is in Chicago when she claims to be five hours north.  This story deserves a separate post, but it is difficult to write.

The destruction of the Mika relationship began in mid-July and continued through mid-October.  It caused the depression which caused my blogging to be minimal.  One does get attached.

Fourteen months ago, I gave up Roxanne, a dancer at Scores, for Mika.  What a mistake!  Roxanne and I have gone out a couple of times lately and it’s really going well.  She is honest, drug-free, and does not drink to excess.  I hope she and I become very close.

Maggie is due to be released from prison about the first of January.  Her three kids (the other two were adopted out) generally visit her on Saturdays, and the kids are beginning to have a mother once again.

I hope.

I cannot find the Little Stripper Girl.  She was pregnant the last time I spoke to her.  I’m sure she’s okay, but I worry a little. 

The Superstar will be released from prison on November 2.  She hopes not to return to crack and heroin.  If she returns to hooking, she will definitely go back to the drugs.  It’s very difficult to hook without drugs. 

Angie claims to be clean.  Clean to her means no IV heroin, just methadone.  She still loves crack.  She’s doing a little low-priced hooking, as her life-style has so destroyed her looks, at age 25, that she can no longer command her $350 per hour rate.

Jewels and I have made up, but I hardly see her.  She doesn’t answer her phone for days at a time.  I suspect crack, but am not sure.

Kim is back on heroin.  Her live-in boyfriend’s refusal to give it up sucked her right back in.  She has been fired from her hooker job due to her lack of interest in taking calls.

The Journey continues.

Published in:  on October 28, 2007 at 12:09 am Comments (1)

Stripper Girl Update, Part Two

 

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Monday, June 4, 2007:

Anastasia, formerly a dancer at Heavenly Bodies, left her current stripper job at Crazy Rock and is attempting to find a real job. She wants to get into pharmaceutical sales.

I have seen a lot of her as a friend for the last six years. We had dinner Saturday night at Sushi Wabi and she dropped over today.

Anastasia says the forced cuddling and kissing (she actually said kissing, I did not know that was available) caused her to hate doing it in real relationships, just like Mika claims.

Maggie, a former cocktail waitress at Dreamers (now Scores) in Stone Park, has been close to me for well over five years. Her new baby is six weeks old and is with Maggie’s mother. Maggie is incarcerated in Cook County Jail and awaits sentencing.

I visited Maggie in jail tonight. Her eyes were sparkling. She was laughing, then she thought of the mess she’s made of her life, and she cried.  Because of incarceration, she’s been off crack and cigarettes for a month now.  She’s put on some weight. I never thought I’d see her with a belly!

She wants to take her parole at my place, when she finally does gets paroled. I’m trying to get up enough nerve to tell her that I’m bailing out on her. I’m done, burnt out. I’ll be her friend, but I don’t want her living here again.

Furthermore, whomever I’m dating at the time would be upset.

In 6-8 weeks, she’ll get her verdict in DuPage County and she’ll also know the sentences from both Cook and DuPage, which will probably run concurrently.

She’ll then be sent to the maximum security prison at Dwight for 4-6 weeks for “processing”, whatever that is.  Dwight will assess her threat level, then send her to a medium or minimum security prison somewhere in the state.

I’m told the minimum security prisons aren’t that bad. Cook County Jail, where she is now, is truly hell on earth.

Mika is with her son in the North Woods and seems to have given up the whole “bad girl” lifestyle. We are once again very, very close.

KC is in Cook County Jail with Maggie. She was picked up on a warrant check in Oregon and extradited to Chicago. She got into a fight with a tough black chick at County and now resides in “the hole”.

KC was just offered a five year sentence in Court. She refused it and is trying for a shorter term.

I was involved with Kate, a Russian dancer at Heavenly Bodies, for nineteen months, and I did care about her. She has left stripping and has returned to sales as a wine distributor.

The Little Stripper Girl claims that she is pregnant by her live-in stud muffin. Her phones are now disconnected.

The Superstar started legal methadone at a legal clinic, but also uses the real stuff.  She lives in her “work room” in a hotel and hooks to get her heroin.

Angie, a former dancer at Black Jack’s, continues to be a crack addict, dope fiend, and whore. I no longer answer her calls, as she’s always dope sick and always demands that I drop everything and shoot over so she can shoot up after I drive her to her connection.

I refuse to deal with Jewels since the altercation. She no longer calls at my request.

Katie, the Polish blonde with the wicked body, no longer calls due to my refusal to drop everything and drive her to her crack dealer.

Sexy, sexy Kim quit heroin cold turkey a week ago now. Hooking vastly depresses her. I don’t know that she can give up heroin and continue to hook.

The Journey continues.

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Thinkin’

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April 1, 2007

Up at 3:00 AM
Can’t sleep
Thinkin’
Thinkin’ ’bout Mika

What went wrong?
Where is she?
Been eight weeks now.
Where is she?

Maggie.
Woke up this morning.
Gone.
Where in the hell
did she go now?

Jill
Sweet, Sweet Jill.
First date today,
in just a few hours.

Why do I think
“Here we go again”?
Another pretty girl,
full of fire and life.
Another pretty girl,
just more agony and strife?

Is Jill different?
No drugs.
No alcohol.
Not a dancer.
Goin’ to school.
Maybe.
Just maybe.

Here we go again.

Published in:  on April 1, 2007 at 4:51 am Comments (10)

Stripper Girl Update

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Friday, March 2, 2007: 

Gia, formerly a dancer at Black Jack’s, now gone straight (supposedly!), confirmed our first date tomorrow night.  I feel some reluctance, as in “here we go again!”.

She’s cute, okay???

Maggie, a former cocktail waitress at Dreamers (now Scores) in Stone Park, is still here and is still irritating the hell out of me.  She smokes cigarettes like crazy and consumes cases of Coca-Cola.  She orders mountains of expensive, bad-for-you, processed food, then plays with it, destroying it for others, hardly eating any of it.   She sleeps, then gets intensely mean until she can find a way to get some crack.  Advanced crack addicts eat poorly constantly, at least this one does.  I run out of everything and must charge out to get things for her just to shut her up.  We are about to have an explosion.

Anastasia, formerly a dancer at Heavenly Bodies, got suspended from her current strip club for two weeks for failure to work the day shift as ordered.  I will come under serious pressure for financial aid.  Evidently I provide unemployment compensation for laid-off strippers.

I was involved with Kate, a Russian dancer at Heavenly Bodies, for nineteen months, and I did care about her.  Anastasia tells me that Kate’s life isn’t going that well and, as an aging stripper surrounded by dysfunctionality for years and years, she makes the wrong choices in men. 

Kate’s always been lazy and thinks her wonderful beauty will get her everything.  Instead,  her future seems to be more of the smoke-filled rooms which she hates, a flirtation with alcoholism, and countless men who profess love but are really only interested in one thing.  She’s beginning to realize the reality of her future.  I feel badly for her, but definitely do not want to speak to her.

That led to a ninety-minute conversation with Anastasia about how we can get her out of the business of taking her clothes off for a living.

The Little Stripper Girl claims that she is newly pregnant by her live-in stud muffin.  Once perfection herself, she now looks so very thin, I suspect from crystal meth.  I worry about her and the fetus.  Does the fetus have a chance?

The Little Sailor Girl has returned from combat in the Persian Gulf to conflict with me.  We are fighting over my immaturity as evidenced by my infatuation with Mika in her absence.  I do not mention her multi-month dalliance on-board ship with the Navy Seal turned Surgical Nurse.    She is probably also upset over my reluctance to chase her upon her return.  Maybe I should.  Maybe I already blew it.

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The Superstar started legal methadone at a legal clinic a week ago Monday.  As she continues to hook, I do not have any hope for her recovery.

Angie, also a former dancer at Black Jack’s, continues to be a crack addict, dope fiend, and whore.

So sweet!

So cute!

No hope!

Mika danced at a number of Wisconsin clubs, and at Scores in Stone Park.  Today I received the February cellular phone bill which includes the day I turned off Mika’s phone, January 29.  She was in Chicago both the 28th and 29th, and I didn’t know it until just now.  At the moment I turned off the phone, she was an hour south of here in Joliet, an extra hour distant from her home in Wisconsin.  She spent the night there.  What in the hell was she doing  in Joliet?

I guess I never knew her.

I admit that Mika still does get to me.

Knowing full-well that I need to get away from these wild women, I’m seeing Gia tomorrow.  Gia is……..ahem……..cough….cough….a number of months older than Mika, so she may be a better match for me.

Or maybe Gia is too old!

I dunno.

I just dunno.

There is some insane, completely dysfunctional part of me that thinks I know how to play with fire, knowing full-well that I’m already covered in third degree burns.

The Journey continues.

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